alone again, naturally
This past year has redefined me. I feel my heart’s been changed, my desires, my goals, the perception I have of myself, the world, the things I value, all of it has changed. I even got a cat, almost. I think the deepest change starts in the place we can’t reach ourselves, the innermost part of our heart. We can change how we deal with the things we feel but we can’t change the inherent feeling. Feelings of insecurity, jealousy, envy, pride. I think that’s where Yah started His work in me. He brought to light my brokenness, revealed to me my need for hands larger than my own. I became clay, cast down from the height of every ladder I tried to climb to everything I thought I should be. I was brought low, humbled so gracefully - when I didn’t fight back - that the loss of my identity felt liberating. I also got a cat, almost. I had so many plans. Plans for my future, plans for my other half. Plans for my career, my path. I even had plans for you, reading. I thought I was something worth